[October 11, 2007]

Ok, seriously, what is my problem this morning? I woke up just crabby. Again. I have already been crabby once this week. Have I not met my quota yet? I do not understand why I feel this way. I don't want to run, I don't want to take a shower, I don't want to study, I just want to crawl back in bed. I want to cry. I feel overwhelmed. And I'm just fed up. What is this crap? Is this some residual effect from the surgery? Is this me cycling...my body trying to figure stuff out? Is this stress? What? Because, seriously, I have no patience for myself. There is absolutely no reason to feel this way. We are done with this emotional imbalance. It's crap. Total and utter crap. Is this PMS? What is this? I'm upset that I even feel this way. Maybe I just really do need a vacation.

I studied for about an hour and a half last night. The joys of management 340 are many. He wants us to memorize lists. Long lists, and lots of them. It's a great use of my time.

Lots going on in the next couple of weeks. This weekend I am grounded, too many tests to study for. I believe it is our church's anniversary as well this weekend, so lots going on at church. Next weekend is Jake's birthday and party. I need to get the invites sent out TODAY. Getting a late start on all of this. Funny how time just gets away from you. In my case, everything gets away from me...time, my house, homework, bills, life.

Yeah, as far as this bad mood thing goes, we are going to have to put that to bed immediately, if not sooner.