So I went out. I've been doing alot of going out. I didn't have the kids, Jody was in bed asleep, and I didn't want to be home alone on my anniversary, just another sad reminder of a once nice friendship gone really really wrong. And I had the BEST TIME!! I went out Friday night too, and again, had the BEST TIME!! I had no idea that people could be so dang FUN!!! Last weekend I had gone out to see my step dad play, and met a ton of nice people. And another thing?? I am discovering that I really am a funny person. I make people laugh. I do. Who knew??? Also, I'm fun. I am. I'm fun too. And I know how to laugh, and I never knew I enjoyed people so much. I love love love being in my 30s. In my 20s I was shy, and reserved, and BORING!! But now that I am comfortable with who I am, and I know what I want, and I know how to get what I want, I feel so empowered. I had no idea what I was missing. I feel so out there, in a good way. I really feel like I am me. Life is good!

Lee's funeral...was amazing. I don't know if you could call funerals amazing, but it was AMAZING. We laughed so hard we cried. It was so moving. Like I said, a very bittersweet weekend. But I feel like I came full circle this weekend. I'm discovering so many things about life, and even though the pain is so intense some days I think I'm just going to fall apart, I am growing in tremedous leaps and bounds. I wouldn't be gaining so much if I didn't walk have to walk through the fire. I'm coming out!! You'll have to click on the song at the bottom of the left. Miss Diana Ross didn't have a video for this way back when, and I didn't feel like putting a YouTube up, so click the song, because I'M COMING OUT!!