...my point in all this is that in this letter Brannon had to write, he had to explain all these things to the underwriters. Yesterday I was about beside myself all day long. I thought that we would get word by the evening, but that was not to be. Several pieces of paper didn't seem to make it to Christina in the faxing process. Then the underwriters wanted the letter. Who knows how much other stuff they will want before this is all said and done. So I went to bed in knots. I woke up this morning in knots. I hate this not knowing business. It is not good for my digestive system. Yesterday I went ahead and ordered the inspection along with the termite inspection. Because I am a returning customer to Christina, she is paying for the appraisal, which she ordered yesterday. I called Christina last night in a tizzy explaining to her that I was just outside myself and having not good feelings. She told me that she was 99% sure that this was going to happen, and she was so sure that she went ahead and ordered the appraisal. She went on to explain to me that she would not be spending her own money (or company money, I'm not sure which, I only know Brannon and I don't have to pay for the appraisal.) on the appraisal if she didn't have a good feeling about it. Despite the fact that she told me all that, I still don't feel that confident. I think it's just a Murphy's law thing more than anything. It's that, do good things really happen to me? Because as far as luck goes, if it weren't for the bad luck I wouldn't have any luck at all. You know that saying.

Brannon told me not to get married to the house, but it's far too late for that. I am planning my wedding in this house, and I already know where I am going to put all the furniture and this that and the other. I realize that is very premature of me to be daydreaming in such a fashion, but it's human nature. Or maybe it's just Tedra nature. But Brannon did confess that he wants the house as much as I do. I think he has plans of his own.

I told Brannon that no matter what, house or not, that I'm the luckiest girl in the whole world to have him for my partner in this crazy life. He is my best friend, my strength, my calm. He is my soft place to land. It doesn't matter if all Brannon has to offer me is a cardboard box. My life is better just for knowing him.

Sometimes life just surprises you.